The following is an answer and/or comment by inhahe aka ColorStorm (inhahe.com - myriachromat.wordpress.com).
I believe I am a good person because I care about others' well-being. Although it's kind of degenerate to internalize the judgements of others so much that you reflect on your traits as if you're merely a collection of such traits, some of which are 'good' and some of which are 'bad', and then indirectly conclude that you are good or bad based on how you fulfill these traits. More natural is to simply have a direct sense of your own inherent worth, and to love yourself or at least to perceive your own intrinsic value based on that. But I guess this is something people lose over time. People lose connection with their core selves, or if not that then at least they forget their value through their being masked by self-judgement.

Sometimes I feel dark or unworthy because of certain things, and I can remedy that *instantly* by adopting a philosophy that *everyone* is ultimately innocent; there are reasons for everything that anybody does or becomes, and evil is just a matter of perception, judgement and contempt are behaviors of immature souls.

The only problem is that, if I adopt that philosophy about myself, which works easily, then I'm a hypocrite if I don't adopt that philosophy regarding others.. but I find it much more difficult to do that. I'm just not ready to grow in that way. So I refuse to see myself that way because then it'd be a contradiction, it'd be illogical, or if not that then at least hypocritical and thus unfair.

On the other hand, consistency in belief systems shouldn't be considered *always* necessary. If one belief is inconsistent with a whole system/plethora of other beliefs, especially those gained from experience, then it's likely false, but if two beliefs are merely inconsistent with each other, you don't know which one is false, and therefore if you make them both consistent by reversing one then you're equally as likely to believe *two* things that are false as you are to believe two things that are true as a result. Otherwise you necessarily believe one thing that is false and one thing that is true (well, I guess you could believe two things that are false that both contradict each other, but besides that..).

In this case, the belief that *I* am perfectly innocent is probably true, and it benefits me and probably everyone else for me to believe it, and the contempt for others is based on a fallacy but I'm not willing to change that, and adding contempt for myself to make it symmetrical doesn't help anything either, it only makes things worse, as in two wrongs don't make a right (but three lefts do).

But still, it just seems so wrong to be shamelessly hypocritical towards others, it's something I've yet to do for any prolonged period..